A busy afternoon in Bangalore

Late night at work, an early morning flight, 2 hours of sleep, 3 hours of working from airport. A little unnerved because you’re out of your comfort zone. Out of the comfortable routine of a familiar place with familiar faces. The bustle of this city - the busy streets full of purposeful people - can get to you. They all seem to have a plan which they are either executing or are constantly aware of even when relaxing. You have none. You have nothing pertinent or of social relevance to be executed. Nothing major that the ecology should be made aware about. You just have this sweet desire to spend some time with her. Talk about sensible and nonsense simultaneously. May be you just have a small list - mostly with just one single item - in your head that you want to tick off before the day ends. Just one important thing that brings you here; despite brushing sides with several unconventional. There’s a natural hiccup in becoming a part of a conversation. And when you do, the ease or difficulty in relating to all of it. Your mind is still dominated by solid memories from the past even though there is a hint of deja-vu - a translucency - in what’s happening around. Choice has always been the real problem for one.

There is an external push - not a motivation, but a raw push - to have a plan, to be more ordered. There is this opportunity to tweak yourself a bit and relate to that talk. It calls for making yourself open to see the new, aware that the memories may still flow in any moment. You need to handle that. You need to be flexible to allow and appreciate the new, yet take part; stand guard. Pull the past appropriately so you don’t get lost or change completely in this new place. You have to contribute as quality is as much driven by the subject as by the object.

There is this newness you need to regard. There are boundaries you need to keep in mind. And then, there is this choice to engage. Requires subtle courage. And perhaps the conversation leads to a fresh dimension, a new beginning may be or existing one with a new flavor.

For now life seems with less regret for sure :-)