The Run - Part one

Where do i begin .. hmmm .. k !! i got it ..
Many of my friends said that the previous post was one of the most filthy note i ever wrote. Perhaps true; When you have a TCS test next day on the queue[ Note i am speaking of a priority queue :P ] where some A.H are gonna ask you English; the post to be filthy is bound to be happening. The other side is that it was all my frustration that found its way on the blog page. And on the lighter note i felt good [:x]

TCS test..huh !! cmon guys its no placement test.. so stay still; just a test for the project. But two things that went different about this test
1. TCS is not an A.H.
2. They changed their questions this tym [all new.. so guys appearing for TCS ; make a note that you do Data Sufficiency well enough; as for verbal Sux all the time].
Lets close this chapter here and try abating the consequences.


I had this thought as I was in bathroom, What next; What next am i gonna do with my life. [These thoughts are at its best when you are in bathroom :P]. This questions did away my idea of watching a movie.[:x]. I pondered and said to myself "Good question Dude.. & .. in fact a relevant one "... taking into current external circumstantial evidence...
"Do i need to think.. means still, i have a year to go...", i said to myself.
"Obv .. you need to think.. and in fact early you begin is better for you", the person standing right in front of me stated. The person whom i never met, the person whom i can feel as omnipresent.
"Fuck !! means why the phase of thinking becomes cyclic...3 years before i thought and once again i need to again.. cmon' why Humans cant Live a life that was meant to be lived..??".
We wanted to live and just have a look at yourself .. are you living or running, running for all petty things that have circumstantially become an stringent and importantly commodity of human life ...
We took birth and the first thing that we adapted was to run.. run for every fucking thing. Run came out the embryo of Expectations.
We Expect and and to quench the expectation we run .. holding our breath..

I am not questioning the very process of Life .. and i cannot coz i have been a part of that f***ing system for 22 long years. but its a feeling that i couldnt get rid of since many days, years whatever ... we want , we work hard and we get .. Time again we want more , we work harder, and we get .. the more we work the meaner we become. The idea which keeps hunting me is when this big want meets its destiny.. when do we start enjoying the basic happiness of world.. !!!
Well cut it loose.. and let me get straight to the basic question what am i gonna do

Where most of my friend have started their CAT Preparations..i am still looming large at the different Multiple choice available on my OMR sheet of life. Pursuing a MBA is the least thing i wanna do now. So "Belling tha CAT" as they say is not so evident in my mind.. as for now..
2nd option GRE.. some of my friends have taken their GRE and believe me they are into US lifestyle well before a year..huh !!! as far as i am concerned GRE is still 2 yrs from now..
3rd option GATE .. this is one option that i am looking forward with an interest more than any of the previous two; and every sip of coffee from my mug strengthens this idea..
4th and the most probable idea that i am thinking is to work...means cmon Dude you studied all the crap for 4 fucking long years. you had slogged night before every semester exam...taste it what its all about...?? [this idea is the strongest in my mind]...
and as i think of a job the word EXPECTATION/RUN starts ringing in my mind again.. and here begins what i think is one of the most sucking, thematic and critical attribute of Humany Psychology...

Sucking - coz its sux for the only obvious reason that it decimates most of the inner desires of human being.
Thematic - coz its one of the Guidelines that factually makes life decorous.
Critical - because we often confuse if its thematic or sucking

.... to be continued